Hey... Im back.

Not too much to add on here.. I am more of a MySpace bitch now.. lol.
www.myspace.com/innocent_baby

Hey.....

Nothing interesting to write, and its not like I like any of you's. There is no one to trust, I hate everyone. Literally everyone.

I really want to get out of here. Just get up and leave and forget about everyone here because everyone has ruined everything for me. You guys have no clue the shit I deal with everyday of my life, and the shit I've had to deal with growing up. And Im not going to sit here and tell you about it either. You all think your better than me, fine by it with me. I could care less about any of you pathetic people. You all have dreams to go to college and all that good shit. My only dream is to have a family and be happy. You all ripped that dream away from me, and I can never get it back. I've never had a happy home or life. Never had anything to look forward to, no one to ever love me. I finally had that, finally had someone make me feel like I belonged and you guys don't even care. Its all about you. Fuck who gets hurt, right? Yeah, well fuck you right back. Im done with this shit. Im dead inside and its all of your fault. And I hate you.

Hey...

So I guess Im going to the football game with Monica tonight, so thats cool. She has really proven to be a good friend, she's always there when I need someone to talk to, and she understands because she's been through a lot of the same shit and she can relate to me and try to give me good advice. <3 No matter how rumors go, I know its the valley. And I have a friendship with Monica, I trust her, and I love her more than any other human being other than like Jarrod. lol. She's a great person and I just think everyone is jealous about how, we became really close.
Aye Aye Aye.

Nothing really interesting to write. I usually use myspace.... www.myspace.com/innocent_baby Check it out, add me, be cool.

Well I got to check some other shit out, so leave me some com.ments and show me some love.

I love you. always.

Yeah, so uh, this is Kait!  Brenda is Gay, but i love her...she smells like ass...but i smell like onions so its all fucking gravey!  Hmm, okay im done ramblin bout smellin funny...heres Brenda...Lol

Hello.
 That was dorky Kait.
Everyone sucks.

Grrr...
Life took a total 180 for me.

Ohhh. My brother is def. coming home on September 27th. So be ready bitchesss! Big Red is coming home... lol.

I miss my friends.
*Well I guess I shouldnt call them friends, because now that I could really use them, they all abandoned me. So fuuuuuck yooooou*

lol.

So I was just informed that Pottsville is Herpie Central...?!?! lmao.

So doing nothiing really with my days lately.I hang out with Jaime and shit, but thats as far as that goes. I used to love my friends and my life, and now everyone and everything seriously sucks total monkey ass majorly. But I just gotta let it roll, because if I meant half as much to them as they said I did, they would be a little understanding  AND NOT DITCH  ME TO GO TO MY EX BOYFRIENDS PARTY!!!! That really hurt.
Friends.... Yeah thats not even a word to me anymore.

*Sigh*  Im working on getting a job. I will be 18 soon enough and my plan is to move to New York or somewhere close to their and FAR away from here and all the supposed ones that cared about me. I have no one. Neither do I care anymore. Well obviously it bothers me a bit or I wouldn't be sittign here bitching about it, but seriously don't you think its fucked up at all that your being like this. ?!  Anyways, as I was saying, Im gonna move there and try to start a career as a model or soemthing. I don't want to sit around here and hate life and deal with pathetic people like you anymore. I wanna make something of myself, be something. THat way someday I can sit back and say I did it. Without anyone of you's.

Aye aye aye. I read this really good book called Angels && Demons by Dan Brown. You should all read it. He is a very intellectual author and maybe one of ya's learn something. Haha doubt it.

I went to McD's this morning with Jamie && Molly. We talked about one thing there and back and it was funny!! haha. At least some people aren't turning their backs on me totally.

Im trying to make this updayte long cuz I noticed I havent writtena  lot in awhile, and I remember when everyone used to love to read my xanga because my insights and thoughts on things used to come out perfectly and make sense and sound smart. Haha. But thats not the case anymore. I keep a personal journal and havent written in it over a week because the feelings I am feeling and the thoughts that I am thinking dont seem to come out right. I cant explain this emptiness or sadness or defiance. I am feeling to many emotions at once, thinking to into things too much. I seriously think I am driving my lil ol self friggin crazzzy. And its painfully obvious that I have no one to help me overcome this.

I hate you.
All of you.
I never felt so much hatred for people in my life.
You make me sick.
And I should just sit back and laugh.
But I can't.
Because even though I hate you....
 ... I love you.
Even though we don't talk.,
I think about you.
Even though you don't understand...
.... Hopefully someday you will.

Thanks Kait. <3

I'm sad.
I'm confused. 
 ... I want the hell out.

I had a choice.. To be with you or you hate me forever... Thats a bad place to put me at.

My friend turned on me. What a surprise..? Just like everyone else in my effen life. I just want to dissapear. Everyone can just ferget me. I'll be another memory.

I'm not a bad person. I don't try to hurt people. But it happens that way, and I warned you. I'm going through shit you wouldn't even understand. I'm more fucked up in the head than you wish to be. So don't be an ass, until you know the reasoning, and the shit behind it.

I can't stand half of you's that are reading this, and the other half, talk shit on me. I'm tired of the valley drama. I don't ever leave my house, and somehow the drama still continues to circle around me.

You know what I go through. You were purposely hurting me, and for that, I will hate you forever. There are you happy...? You wanted me to hate you and you suceeded.

Pot is cool, masturbation is great, and pink anything rocks me! HA!

^-- I sooo stole that from Kiki. But it was hilarious. Thanks babe, you made me laugh today.